Here, I sit alone to write, reflect the year how it has
passed in a hurry. This year was full of self-discovery, accomplishments and
pure family joy to live in. This year witnessed and washed the waves of emotions
that reflected the loss (August 2017) of family member(daddy). The layers of loss are just overwhelming and memory is what kept me alive, for the most part. But amidst all the pain and sadness are
miracles, this year provided me a source of
affirmation, hope, and belief that every cloud has its silver lining. We added new
family members (my nephews) to our family members’ list. Also, I am a year
older, wiser, wittier, and humbled. Imperfections began to give meaning to the character
and uniqueness to my wiser perspective. I
made some new friends and got a chance to reconnect to the old ones. I am
thankful to everyone out of you for making my year long journey fun, interesting
and meaningful, as you helped me shape, who I am today. Also, thanks to the
Facebook! Of Course!! Most vivid memories to reflect would be my family trip to
San Diego, last fall. I could still smell, touch and hear the city when I see
the pictures. It has definitely stolen my heart. Life has never looked so beautiful
than this before.
2019 taught me to be myself, and to live
without fearing all the stories, labels, and judgments that I had placed upon
myself, for a very long time, inside a box. Self-realization that God has taken a time to
made me, so I should be just “plain me” and nobody else. I do not live to
pretend nor to be perfect. I live in a moment and it is what it is, whether or
not anybody likes it. Honestly being aware of my own thought process was a huge
relief. It felt like as if I was doing the biggest favor to myself. Mid way
through 2019, I showed a courage and followed my intuition. I gave continuity
to an MBA program that was in halt, for various obligations/reasons. My decision
uplifted my spirit and aligned quickly with my soul and sure it was, oddly
fulfilling.
We all get to be human and we all have
our ups and downs. We distract,
entertain, cope, plan, and learn. Most of all, we move on. While doing that, we
tend to underestimate the power of ourselves, our ability to recognize our
inner strength. That’s just my two cents. This year has helped me to improve the outlook
on my life profusely. As my doctor always says, it’s in my blood, I have B+ive.
