Expectations

“Every man is trying to either live up to his father’s expectations or make up for his father’s mistakes.” I ran across this quote on the book called The Audacity of Hope written by 44th U.S president Barack Obama. Highly influenced by his writing and his convictions, for days, my mind could not erase off the magnificent contents which was veiled within a realms of “expectations”.
Then to give it a trial, I decided to settle off my living for a week without letting my expectation to interfere my day to day activities. Understating the degree to which my addiction to expectations was undermined, was tough for me. Lucid with my vision, I realized how unjust I was becoming with myself. Expectations are what have pulled us together and inspire us to tail the optimism.

I tried to reason to myself, then why do we get disappointments when we fail to fulfill our expectations. Knowing the root cause, “expectation” why should we get sick to our stomach, by gratuitously welcoming expectation, to ruin our good morning or sometimes good night sleep? How hard it is to shape our desire and show it to its destination? Occasionally we all like to be spoiled. Don’t we? We ought to save expectations unknowing or unknowingly.

I had no immediate reason to pursue revolution with my thought. I decided nevertheless that in style and attitude, I may sound like one already. So before I entangled myself into many spilled rejections, I’d begun to stick with the orthodoxy and reexamine my assumptions, recalled the values my parents have passed me through, through my upbringings.

How demanding it is to expect, to share the burden of personal responsibility? I wonder maybe I ought to expect only to place a premium on wining arguments rather than solving problems. Disappointment’ hits big time and even the small differences in perspective does magnified. How can I see far when I get my vision narrowed? ( Not to mention, I do wear prescriptive eye glasses). Amplifying the battle of my conflicting thoughts, I let myself to surround with the same mix of virtues and vices, like everyone else, insecure from future, dependent with fundamentally different ideologies, and perhaps motivated by unattainable expectations.