Learning to Heal

Have you ever stared up at the sky in silence, and get overwhelmed? I do that often. Let me be honest Virginia’s skies are prettiest of all. I can’t really tell whether the dusk looks prettier or the dawn or the night which filled with the sparkling stars. If you really consider, sky is one the most magnificent, yet mysterious element that exist to this universe. Or maybe I am just the odd one who finds the spiritual connection with it. 

When I look at the sky, I sense a magical essence and with an awe, I feel connected with my daddy, as if he was watching me over and guiding my path while I release and caste my worries, my problems. It is amazing how we quickly cope and develop our own way to deal with the grief. Emotions are overwhelming and I find it somewhat comforting to be able to pour it through this blog. I wonder from times to times, why does death had to be so disappearing, and at the end, where does our soul actually reach, after we die? In the sky, in this earth, in this universe or where it is, really?? What is our purpose? I had to admit that the science I love so dearly is actually so powerless to answer any of these questions. Rest in peace is the most ironic and understated statement I have ever found. When you lose someone you really love, things around you does starts to look fuzzy, uncertain and disorderly.

Universe has much to offer in many, unique, ways. We sometimes take things, for granted and other times, make lame excuses about our busy life schedules, to take care for it, to live it, today.  I am guilty of it too. Why do we always have to look forward to, tomorrow, and for that tomorrow will always be tomorrow. Why can’t we live it for today? We indeed learn so much from losing than from winning. That the biggest truth of life! Losing a parent changes, you forever. It helps you gain a much deeper insight of life. Today, I look up to the sky to adjust to my loss, I embrace the time I had spent with him.  I see this breathtakingly mesmerizing horizon to unravel, this massive, boundaryless space and some unseen, truly calming force makes my visibility as clear as possible.